Give credit where credit is due...

I never give people enough credit.

I always try to protect them in some way or another. I feel like I need to soften the blow of reality or shelter them from the truth of something that might be all together too difficult for them to handle. In this way, I cheat them out of my own honesty. I lie to save them, without realizing that maybe they didn't need saving in the first place. Without even thinking that maybe the brutal truth is the only thing that could ever make any of it alright. Or not alright.

The most important thing is, well I guess there are two: Faith and Honesty.

I forget how durable people can be. That we are not made out of glass. Life is fragile, but very often people are not so breakable. Like I said, I need to give people more credit. I need to have faith in their strength.

I also need to be more honest. Even if lies come from a good place, they are still lies. And lies demand upkeep. And upkeep demands effort, and effort is usually better spent on things more worthwhile than dishonesty. And besides, the fastest way to isolation is through lies. They are unnatural and no one wants their life to be a sham.

I've been lost for a while now, and I'm not sure how it happened, but I know lies were involved. I'm trying very hard to remember who I am, who I was, and who I want to be. I remember I used to believe in magic, before I got caught up in how terribly unfair the world can be. But thats only one way to look at it. There is still magic to be found and miracles to witness, and sometimes they are events, places, sometimes your magic miracle is another human being. The important thing is to never let your eyes get so blind and your heart get so jaded that you can't see or feel magic anymore. It's important to keep seeking. Keep wide open, it's the only way to be honest and to find yourself.

I think anyways.